Bummer

Lots to share...Unfortunately while I was uploading pictures I hit a wrong button, and there went my newest past!! So tomorrow since its way to late to write it all over again I will be adding pictures, and writing the newest gossip in my world!!
Always in our hearts, are those whole we have lost!

Life's Twists and Turns

I haven't written in a few months: With that being said I have done so much, its days away from my 25th birthday and I'm so excited! I was thinking about making a cake for myself, but I have so many food issues, and food allergies that I have not clue what to make. Maybe a simple cake with cute designs on top. I'm pretty sure my bests will be around to help eat it.
We have moved into the house, and trying to find little places to put all our stuff. Trying to really blend 2 peoples things, into one house, it pretty darn tricky. I have given my loving hubby his own "Man Cave" in the basement. I must say, it was a little deviously done so that I would be able to enjoy a Sunday without watching the Giants football games, and a hubby who is yelling at them as if they could hear him. I can always tell if they are winning or losing by how much noise he is making!! The man cave is painted in NY Giants colors, and has a popcorn machine with all the fixings. Also, all his Giants stuff, and candy!
Life is taking some big twists and turns, I'm not sure if I can hold onto my thought that there is good in people. I have been smacked in the face with a reality stick, and I can tell you it hurts, stings, burns, and makes me want to scream a little. In the end a few friendships may be getting cut out of my life, they are making me doubt myself. And in my mind thats not worth it.
Married life is going well. We fight, we make up, and in the end life works it way out. We are "house broke" everything goes into this house, and the reality of money issues are now here. I need to find a job to add more money into our life. I have a great husband who is supporting me while I'm not working. But I feel the pressure to find my own way outside this house which has consumed my life. Today I'm off to find a job!

New House!!!

A few days ago we got our new home!!!!!! One of our greatest friends has been helping us everyday prime, scrape, and whatever else needs to be done. Along with him, a bunch of other lovelys have been helping us out. This is proving to kick all of our bums BIG TIME! The house wasn't in bad shape, but there is about 20 years of paint built up on moldings, walls, and doors. Welcome to adulthood I guess. We can't wait to move everything in!!

Happy Wife Happy Life!

Today we bought our first home! Welcome to adulthood...And us being tied into a loan for 30 years. 30 YEARS!!!! I will be in my 50's when this house is paid off, scary thought to think about. We with help from a great friend, started fixing random things, grouting back splashes, and covered holes up. I had a mini freak out, causing me to leave the house. Oh the joys of setting up a home! This house looks like a Crayola box of different colors. Red hall ways, orange kitchen, bright blue walls, and grass green bed rooms, this is going to be a challenge to turn red walls into white walls!! We are looking forward to transforming this house into a home....
I really can't wait till the repairs are all finished, and I can really get into my house and bake something!!

Baked Goodies!!!

I decided part of my new life will consist of me doing exactly what I love doing...Baking!! Yesterday, in the middle of a CT snow storm I decided that I wanted to make something. I went with something I know basically everyone loves, Mini Cheesecake Bites!! I found two delicious crusts, one was graham crack crust, with 8 tbls of butter and 8 tbls of sugar. Beat the graham crackers till they are crumbs (2 cups worth), (I imagined every ex boyfriends head on each piece...lol) then added the sugar. Mixed those two things together, then added the butter. It smelled so yummy all mixed together, and surely not on anyones diet plan!! The other crust is 2 cups of crushed Oreos, 4 tbls of butter, mixed all together. If you think the graham cracker crust smelled yummy, then you would LOVE this one. Then set off on making the cheesecake. 2 (8 oz) packages of cream cheese, 3/4 cup of sugar, 1tsp of vanilla flavoring, and two eggs. You have to leave the cream cheese packages out to get to room temp, what I did to speed that up was filled a pot full of hot hot water, and just added the packages UNOPENED to it till the were softened. Then put that in a bowl added the sugar, and with a hand mixer blended those two things together to a smooth consistency. From there just added the other items one at a time, slowly...You don't want to splash out of the bowl!!! Plus, I read somewhere that adding one egg at a time will make it smoother. You want to really blend it to a smooth, silky consistency. Lumpy cheesecake is no good!! Then add crust to the bottom, packing it down and into the corners. You don't want to add to much, it can totally take over the cheesecake flavor. The recipe said bake at 350, for 15 mins. I found that 15 mins left it a little mooshy still, so I left the next batch in for 17 mins, then once that was done turned off the oven, cracked the door open and left the cheesecakes to set up in there. I found that they were less sticky, and didn't cave in as much. When they were cooled I added cherry pie filling to the tops, refrigerated and from what I hear they are very very good!! I got the recipe from www.allrecipes.com!!
A week or so ago I made a Black Forest Tart Pie, and chocolate chip cookies with ice cream in between both. I kind of cheated with the cookies, they were cut and bake, and I didn't make the ice cream...HaHa. But they came out great looking! The Black Forest Tart was made from melted semi-sweet chocolate melted down with butter, and other ingredence that I am blanking on. Those two recipes were from Pillsbury. Target's dollar section has little booklets, and Pillsbury has been putting out mini cook books.
When baking I go into my own world, a little world that can be made better with a happy little treat. I thought about going to culinary school, but it was so expensive and they would have taught me how to bake, along with cooking. It really wasn't for me. I feel in that little word I create full of wonderful smells, and the happiness it brings to others is so worth it. It's so worth it!! So if you are ever sad, and need a pick me up bake something...Even if it's a just add water recipe.

The Beginning

I have watched as many people have started their blogs, and developed an outlet for the world to be seen through their eyes...I am hoping by doing this I can find some insight into the world outside my suburban housewifeness, that I currently live in. I am 24 years old, and live in my in-laws basement with my husband and dog, along with 2 cats and a fish. I currently am on a path to reinvent myself...Something I thought would be much easier, but is proving to be harder then expected. I went through this right before I started dating my now husband, decided that I wasn't happy with where I was going in life, and up and changed it. Slowly through out dating him, then marrying him, I lost that great person I was. And became this empty shell that only cares about what others think...That old me, would have kicked this me's ass!!
I bake all different sort of goodies. Great for whoever I am living with, and friends that come to visit, crappy for me because I have an allergy to some milk products, and any great baked item....has milk of some sort in it!! But still baking is a passion of mine. I would love to be a professional wedding cake baker/designer, or make cupcakes all day long. YUMMY!! I am addicted to watching Food Network, and any show that has wedding cakes, or cupcakes being made!!!
I say that I find my voice through music. I know that comes off weird sounding, but I can pretty much find a song to fit the moment I am in at the time, anytime. Sometimes the lyrics are the words that I just can't speak out loud. I'll be posting songs that express the days feelings.
I hope through this blog that I can find peacefulness in life, and in myself...Even if I never have a single reader out there in Blog Land...And if I do have a reader out there...
WELCOME TO MY CRAZY LIFE....Sometimes it isn't pretty, sometimes it's really dull, other times, its a none stop riot!!!